Hi guys! I just wanted to distract myself tonight and get my mind away from disordered eating. So, here are 3 kinda-fun-non-eating-disorder-related things about me. BECAUSE I AM NOT MY DISORDER. I am so much more!
1. The dolphin is my spirit animal.
I think I was born to be a big fish, ya’ll. I’ve just always loved the water and the ocean. Swimming, floating, splashing, being submerged. Nearly every birthday party I had as a kid was held at the YMCA. I could always hold my breath longest and swim the fastest lap. The Little Mermaid is my favorite movie and I tend to stay in the shower until my fingers and toes have shriveled into little pink raisins. I am a water child.
This past summer I took a cruise with my family in which we were able to SWIM WITH DOLPHINS. After the whole ordeal I contemplated with serious reflection whether I should drop out of college to become a dolphin trainer. When I was in the water with this gal we had a serious connection. I was so grateful that I was able to interact with such a beautiful creature, but saddened that she was unable to roam freely about the sea. This dolphin and I, we had so much in common. Both in love with the cool salt water rushing against our skin, both possessing adventuresome spirits, both likely to burst out in laughter. I miss her and I hope she is enjoying her days. But literally, if my current career path doesn’t pan out, I will return to her. We will go on so many adventures…
2. I’m a band geek.
That’s right, you know who I’m talking about. No, I never had braces or a frizzy, red afro, but besides that I was pretty much on target. In high school I played the bass drum in marching band. I justified with myself that this was cool because I was still on the drumline, and when I was promoted to snare drum as a senior, I pretty much thought I was the “cat’s pajamas”. I’m proud of my days in high school as a band geek. Band geeks typically only roll with other members of their particular clique of band geeks, and our little group had some pretty fun times. We had a lot of laughs, a lot of recognized, mutual, shamelessly exposed weirdness. And that was okay, and we were okay. I’m proud to be a band geek and I think it is just part of who I am; my genetic makeup. If ‘ya don’t like it, you can GET OUT.
3. I’ll always have a crush on Heathcliff.
I adore the book Wuthering Heights by Emily Brontë. If I wasn’t a dolphin or mermaid and couldn’t live in the ocean, I think I’d like to reside on an English moor. Incredibly depressing and dreary, I know. However, something about the novel attracted me to it from page one and I’m not quite sure what caught my interest.
I’ll admit that Heathcliff has some pretty terrible character flaws (obsessiveness, rage, etc.), but he has good reason, okay, so leave him alone! He’s so angry, so broken, so tragically fragmented, yet still capable of undying love (for one very lucky and undeserving woman). So yes, he’s awful at times, but I don’t know! I JUST WANT TO LOVE HEATHCLIFF AND GIVE HIM SOME CUDDLES, ‘YA KNOW?
I hope everyone has a great evening! To anyone suffering with mental illness, remember that you are so beautifully and uniquely made. Not one of us is alike, and that is a miracle in itself. Your disorder is so insignificant and in no way defines you.
Much love, xoxox Dee
You Deserve a Donut. 